Saturday, September 11, 2010

L is for lethargic...

I can't believe it's been so very long since I last posted.
Of course, that was never my intention.
You know how it gets... you start something and then forget what is was- where it was- what it was for.

My- how much things change in a year and a bit. At the last time of posting, L was definitely about Life. As the first post said- it was about God-given life. Yet, a year on, I find myself with a lot less 'god' in my life. I can't see the purpose anymore. I know this is worrying to some of my dear friends, but there it is. I can't hide it. I can't pretend (for the sake of continuity of this blog) for it to be otherwise. There's no point in doing so. Maybe I'll flip-flop from this, maybe not.

But L is still very much about Living. It seems like I've done a lot of living this year. But oftimes, work consumes me. I'm currently involved in marking music performance and practical exams for our HSC (final school exams). I've been working 12 hour days for most of the term plus several hours on weekends to be able to get away from school for these two weeks. I have one more week of marking to go, then a week back at school, before finally a 2-week holiday. Yay yay yay!

Unfortunately, I seem to spend so much time getting to the holiday period, but no time preparing for it. So for now, I have no plans for the coming break. And no plans = no progress for me. (I know myself too well!)

So here is my first goal: in the next fortnight, come up with a do-able plan for the coming holidays. Include some time for friends, family and time-out for me, but plan to actually get some things done.

I'm going to include things that might stop me from achieving my goals, and attempt to work out some ways to thwart these. I just happen to be absolutely, fantastic at procrastinating, so I really need to find a way to get past this fault. I need to plan more for my life, rather than just waiting for it to go by.

I'll be away with marking for the next week but when I return I hope to post some plans.